I don’t like what’s happening…..
…to me, or my life!
Don’t get me wrong, I love what’s happening to me and my life, I’m just not happy.
I don’t like the fact that I have to work 2 jobs to support my family. That’s my decision though!
I don’t like the fact that I have to get up at 3 a.m. Monday through Friday and I am unable to get in bed at a decent hour. That’s my decision though!
I don’t like the fact that I’m not as active in my support group as I have been in the past. That’s my decision though!
And I TRULY don’t like the fact that I am not being as supportive on the boards as I once was!!!!! That’s my decision though!
I know and understand that support is a 2 way street. I feel as if I have let my friends and my self down, simply because I am not here on my blog or on the TN boards, as much as I should be.
There use to be a saying that says…”S**T Happens! I like to refer to it as “LIFE happens”. Because of my commitments (by this I mean my crazy schedule), I have been unable to offer support via the written word, or in person, for a long time and it drives me crazy! I read every post, and all my friends blogs, every morning. During the day at work, I check out the boards every chance I get. As soon as I get home in the evenings, I jump on the computer and see who’s posted. Then my brain goes into shut down mode and I just collapse because I am so tired. I say to myself, “Self, you can answer these post in the morning”. Unfortunately, in the morning all I do is read and the vicious cycle starts all over again! I truly apologize for not being here for all of you wonderful people, or for myself! You see, when I talk to all of you, I’m truly talking to myself!
I sit here typing this while popping my supplements and drinking an Matrix Orange Cream Protein drink. I guess I just needed to get this off my chest more than anything! Thanks for listening!
So for all those persons who have just started this journey, congrats! It will be the best decision you will ever undertake! For those that have just been approved, the 2 week liquid diet is not bad at all! For those who have recently had surgery, sip, sip, sip and walk, walk walk! For those in post-op, there will be good days and bad, but it will be worth it! And for my friends who are in the process of Plastics, don’t ever think of this as the end of a journey, it’s just another port of call on this cruise we call life!
Where am I as I type this, I am at 5 months out, and have lost a total of 142 pounds (85 since surgery)! My energy level is through the roof. I feel great at being able to do things that were a burden in the past. Everything is fantastic; except I don’t like what’s happening! That’s going to change though! You see, that’s my decision!
See ya later!
I know and understand that support is a 2 way street. I feel as if I have let my friends and my self down, simply because I am not here on my blog or on the TN boards, as much as I should be.
There use to be a saying that says…”S**T Happens! I like to refer to it as “LIFE happens”. Because of my commitments (by this I mean my crazy schedule), I have been unable to offer support via the written word, or in person, for a long time and it drives me crazy! I read every post, and all my friends blogs, every morning. During the day at work, I check out the boards every chance I get. As soon as I get home in the evenings, I jump on the computer and see who’s posted. Then my brain goes into shut down mode and I just collapse because I am so tired. I say to myself, “Self, you can answer these post in the morning”. Unfortunately, in the morning all I do is read and the vicious cycle starts all over again! I truly apologize for not being here for all of you wonderful people, or for myself! You see, when I talk to all of you, I’m truly talking to myself!
I sit here typing this while popping my supplements and drinking an Matrix Orange Cream Protein drink. I guess I just needed to get this off my chest more than anything! Thanks for listening!
So for all those persons who have just started this journey, congrats! It will be the best decision you will ever undertake! For those that have just been approved, the 2 week liquid diet is not bad at all! For those who have recently had surgery, sip, sip, sip and walk, walk walk! For those in post-op, there will be good days and bad, but it will be worth it! And for my friends who are in the process of Plastics, don’t ever think of this as the end of a journey, it’s just another port of call on this cruise we call life!
Where am I as I type this, I am at 5 months out, and have lost a total of 142 pounds (85 since surgery)! My energy level is through the roof. I feel great at being able to do things that were a burden in the past. Everything is fantastic; except I don’t like what’s happening! That’s going to change though! You see, that’s my decision!
See ya later!
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